i have some extra time on my hands right now at work, so i'm posting a quick hello and what's up in Nashvegas.
The climate's changing in Nashville and the feel of the weather's been pretty nice recently. It's gone from the hot summer for cooking eggs on the asphalt to breezy cool days, and rain has been treating us well so my mom and i wont have to water the plants recently.
It's been good learning the books at my small family business, but it's also been a very difficult adjustment with the changes in life and in continent. My mom's been teaching me here and there, but the difficult part is knowing that she's not just your boss so i've had to control myself in listening to her, rather than trying to contest with her. It's just strange to grow together as a real family and, at the same time, a real business too. It's not easy. On one hand, I need to separate the family life with the business life. On the other hand, everybody knows we're a mom-and-pop shop so the family part is expected here. However, I wanna take it to the next level in bringing our business to a more formal and global business, but it's very difficult because of 3 reasons. 1) I don't actually own the store. 2) We'll have to unanimously decide to separate the "public" and the "private" matters to a greater extent and Do It Together. and 3) We don't have enough resources (finance, reliable hands, etc.) to make changes happen very easily. (Voila, c'est la vie.) I always tell myself to aim realistically, yet I never wanna let go of the impossible.
Anyway, that's enough. I just really hope that real cool things can happen and that God will be happy (and let's me know so i wont be left out of the loop); cus right now, I feel like I am no where close to measuring up.
My courtship with Tyler was rough in the beginning. It was a terrible surprise to my life that I've been trying to learn to adjust to. Since I thought I'd be single for at least 3-5 more years with the goals i've set in my mind to accomplish before this stage, my mindset and my heart have been going off into high anxieties, and my attitude, as a result, has been destructively indecisive. We're trying to work together. I'm glad that we're friends, and I'm glad that he understands... i know i'm difficult, but i guess that's how it goes both ways! haha! If you pray, please pray for us.. cus we really need it.
I'll leave it here for a later post...
By the way, Erica, it was so good to host you at my house. Come back soon~! :^)
I hope everyone's doing well in your neck of the woods. Leave some love.. and sorry if this post makes you wanna puke when you're reading. i was playing with the colors.. but i realized, it makes me wanna puke too. haha! my bad! (peace)
(wow. thanks so much for all the wonderful comments!)
Life in Paris as a sheltered American (unsheltered Asian) has been very very very hard no matter how much support i had outside... It's a new experience to put under my belt, so to speak.. I know it's a bit shady to have come and then suddenly go and then come back in (like 3 times) on xanga... but i really had to focus IN the life in Paris and not be distracted on internet stuff.. i hope everyone really understands, cus if not.. well, i really cant offer any more here and now at the moment. OR EVER really...
But I'm still here in Paris, Not yet exited! Still Here!!! So, with all this>> ya'll, i'mo take the best shot, last stroke, swim Through the wall, man!!! Thanks for ALL the encouragements and all the prayers that i've received all this time. Dont ever leave!! I need you guys and all your support~! we need each other yo! You're all in my prayers, Ya'll know ya'll strong!
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